我
唉~万夫所指，千古罪人是也。
因为我把人心当狗肺，关心当狗屎，狗咬吕洞宾。
由初，把不满与批评宣泄出来的，却不是我。
写给自己的忠告，听劝和反省被钉成了指桑骂槐。这不是我的旨意。
“冷战”此类的举动，更不曾在我的人生思想范畴内。
人与人之间的交流是没有定格的。每个人表达关心的方式都可以是截然不同的。
甲的关心在于行动，乙的关心在于问候， 丙的关心在于激励。
在适当的时候保持沉默，适当的时候开玩笑，适当的时候给予鼓励 - 都是种关心。
人各有志
我没强迫人去欣然地接受我所有的朋友。那，是不可能的。人各有志，道不同，不相为谋。对于两个素未谋面也不会有任何交际的人来说，更没有强求必与己同的需要。
跟不同的人会进行不同的交流。与女生交流不会像与男生般强硬。与陌生人不会像与朋友般熟络。与朋友不会像与恋人般宽容。
男女有别
男女的观点大有不同。对我而言，只要有机会把一滩苦水倾出，把委屈说出来，就算事情没有解决我也感到无比畅快。而男人认为解决办法就是斩草除根，不与问题根源来往或扯上任何关系为佳。
总结
雾里看花，终隔一层。 你所知晓的，是不削与敷衍。我所领教的，终究多一点。
背后的故事与历史，造就了今日我对他们的要求。
我并不是不重视你。你所为我做的，我看在眼里，记在脑里。心里更是满满的感激。
但我对他们的情感是爱慕，所以对待方式难免会与友情有所出入。
我不是容易受感动的人，也不善于表达内心的情感。
对于他们的敷衍，我回馈的也是敷衍，玩笑，讽刺。因为也不常见面，对我来说这是个没压力又轻松的交汇。
难受的时候可祷告，或与大家分享，或看看悲剧哭了发泄就算。
这只是我寻求平衡的方式罢了。
朋友们。都还处在正了解我的境况中。
various updates
Hello. I have been super lazy to write here cos uploading pics so ma fan one. haha.
16/03/08 Steamboat @ my place!
Steamboat at my place!! The only thing I can remember from it was zl using a MATCHSTICK to light up my ELECTRIC stove when all you have to do is to turn the knob. Lol.
Then I hadn’t been acting like a host. Cos I didn’t know where all the utensils and whatnots lie and I don’t even know how to operate the rice cooker, microwave and toaster. Hahaha. Gosh. I’m not ever going to get married (-.-||)
The Darlings Clan
22/03/08 Jason chia’s 21st
Weather was BAD. It was raining lions and wolves (a stronger and fiercer version of cats and dogs =P) plus lightnings. When I managed to muster enough courage and stepped out, the wind blew in ALL directions towards ME! So what’s the use of umbrella? In the end I’m all drenched and dripping water anyway (-.-)
All the nice nice smelling moisturiser and whatever perfume I splashed on myself also washed away already lah. Haha.
So I walked through all the PUDDLES and PONDS of water. Wild wild wet fashion. And reached church. And waited for 3 hours… till the Big Talk between tingan and PCK end. Hahaha!
Then we set off to jason’s place.
Happy 21st Jason! haha I used to think he’s older than me =x
Ethel and I having nothing better to do while waiting in church. haha.
23/03/08 Kopitiam chat
Jinshen and nii-chan came to the S11 nearby my house to have a kopitiam uncle-talk.
Since I live nearby, I went down to join them for a bit.
Think JS took a lot of bo-liao pics of me and nii-chan man. (-.-)
The End. (at last…)
well…
Called the repair centre. Quotation given was $128.40. Dad msged out the green light before I can give other comments.
Want a pair of new specs. But the camera cost and the recent exceeded phone bill are paid by my dad. Now want to ask also abit paiseh. So I shall wait for 2 weeks (>.< 
Graemee dear got too bored at camp. Called me and said funny things. Gona squeeze something outta him soon. Not the ero way.
KW was transferring pictures to me via Sharing Folder on MSN. There are some sneak shots taken of markie-and-me interaction. His excuse: show how xinfu you two were. Hello. We aren’t even couples.
Darling Jas’s 21st Bday chalet was wonderful. I had quite a lot to drink such that I can’t drive back. And I was sprouting nonsense. This morn I asked kk what we talked about last night.
* said:
u said a lot of retarded and embarassing things
* said:
lucky i recorded down lol
干拿塞!
I HATE HIM.
Today I didn’t fall asleep during singh’s class!
Haha… cos we did SPSS so I was occupied and awake.
Anyway I already slept a full 12hours before going to school, so yea (>.<
Met Mich, wanling and huiting on the bus from school back home.
Was talking to my ever-interesting graemee who came up with a creative way to mock me:
markie markie where art thou?
and joan says
here i am u silly cow!
Nice one.
Tomorrow I’ll be at Pasir Ris Costa Sands.
Yeaaa~ I love birthday parties at Pasir Ris =)
So near to my house.
Yahoooooo~
camera repair
Fujifilm servicing is sooo NOT doing a good job.
The replacement of an LCD screen is taking EONS, I tell you.
They promised to sms my father within 5 days from the date it was sent in, but till now (8 days) there’s still no information.
I just called to check the repair status, and the phone is like either forever busy or no one bothers to answer. So I called at the main hotline until I got to speak to the customer support. Gosh.
And I realised: They haven’t even start to repair my Cam!!!
干拿赛.
And they once again told me that they would give me a call by Thursday.
Like hello, don’t tell me it’s an empty promise again.
办事效率真差！
A Memorable Day
11pm
Yep anyway to human beings who read my blog, yesterday I’ve got the most memorable V-day in my life. In the bad way.
Guess what?
I got into an accident!
Break time, jas and I went to Clementi interchange to buy textbooks and pressies. Since it was getting late, we called liang excitedly to ask for permission from (inform) him to use his left-over money to take cab back to NUS.
Jas was wrapping present at the middle seat and I was looking at her wrapping present at the left seat. SUDDENLY, BWAMP.
Our cab crashed into the sakae sushi delivery truck in front.
I crashed into the back of the left passenger seat and when i looked up, jas has already flew from the back seat to the front seat and was in an awkward position.
I was darn shocked can. And my teeth was bleeding and I broke tissue inside my lips there so it’s painful. My leg has an irritating blue-black bump now =(
To think I was so happy that my mosquitoes-bitten orr chey are healing, now give me another BIG one.
Jas was worse of course, she had blue back bump all around her left eye, artificial high left cheek bones, abrasions on left hands and legs and suspected glass shard in ear.
So we took another cab to NUH since that cabbie was taking forever to negotiate with the sakae boy. And ambulance doesn’t want to come without police’s arrival. Got injuries they still don’t want call police, want to settle between themselves.
Xray and Checkup at NUH revealed we are fine. So it’s OK humans, we are fineeee don’t worry =)
I went out to ask the cabbie uncle for his phone number and car plate number. He seemed quite frantic actually. The front bumper had caved in and the windscreen cracked like into something like this…
And I realised that human beings do not trust me. This is saddening.
Liang was a gd fella, he rushed down to NUH see us after that. I called Jas’s bf and tried telling him what happened… but he actually said “stop playing larh”. WA LIEW. Hahaha.. then i have to pass the phone to ZL then he believed. Sunny and Xuan came down too. Thanks darlings we love uuu. And also to wensy who (having to quickly rushed outta library) called me immediately after I sms-ed her. You must be thinking - so sweet of her right? Haha… but she called to SUAN me lor.
Then it took eons for my turn to do check up, so I sms-ed ronnie to see his reaction.
“Ronnie dear i tell u i juz had an accident on a cab. My fren flew from back to front seat. E glass in front cracked. Her face got some blue black. Scary rite! =(((”
And I waited and waited and no response came. kns so i changed to markie.
Same template different name.
And he replied with a “Ha! Is she ok? Are you ok?”
Still can ‘Ha!’ leh!
But since he replied so fast… ok la.
Ok so ronnie did reply finally after 2 hours with lotsa “baobei” here and there (-_-||)
haha.
SX was worse la! She went to sms kk “I got into an accident. At Nuh nw.” out of the blue. Totally RANDOM. And the tone abit erm… weird. Cos I haven’t been talking to kk since December till now laaa. Of course kk didn’t reply the sms and I totally forgot about him.
Until he called at like 11plus pm. So I was telling him “哇。这么久后才打来，严重的话我早就死了！” So he was explaining that he thought I was feeling lonely during V-day then want to ka-jiao him, but if I call him he would believe it’s real and would go down to nuh since he was at nus science area till quite late. Like Hello, tell me this when I was about to sleep isn’t of any use my dear~~~ Anyway it’s one of the rarer times I get to talk to him in a peaceful manner, no quarrels and he actually listened and talked normally and sounds genuinely worried. =)
Too bad my handphone battery went dead after some time and I told him to go sleep while I went to bathe.
And more surprisingly, his reply on MSN has changed from the usual few words utterances like “yawnz” and “siam la” and “secret” and “bi zui la” and “is offline” to decent answers. Wahaha. Guilty for leaving me to my own devices right? =)=)=)
(His voice is still darn magnetic la. 有磁性~ sian. No more sickos for mi!)
Matte is so good la, got my sms also immediately called to ask about my state. I was fine la… haha.
And my mum is still the best. After I reached home immediately took her camera phone to take picture of my leg. Like DOTS.
Anyway better not watch CJ7 k.
I’ve never watched a Lamer show than that. And I kept the criticisms to myself during the show in order not to leave a bad impression.
But seriously.
It’s DAMN LAME.
Trash.
In School
4:38 PM
Yo darlings… I’m now in my psych lab class trying really hard not to fall asleep with all the A1A2 B1B2 nonsense. This is bad. I think it’s the Burger King just now.
Since I’m now on MSN talking crap, I’m very much awake. Wahaha.
又来了
最近流行用华文写部落格。
今天的收获是EYESHADOW hehe. 和 make-up remover.
与达零们出去就会有收获嘛。尤其有那个洪子婷，哈哈。
看了《功夫灌篮》那部戏，简直就是胡来嘛。
真庆幸不是与太阳屁股一起看，否则他若领教我的“批评功”后，保证他再也不会邀我去看电影了。
不过还挺好笑的啦，因为无聊到可笑 opps =x
尤其是它的主题曲。。。我的天啊！LOL!
我终于看完那36集的《刁蛮公主》了。真有成就感 =）
明天早上的课我肯定起不来！
下个星期就测验了。而且还是历史！
完了。
老天保佑堕落的我吧。
那马克简直就想让我气炸了肺嘛！竟然让sz敷衍我。
我就发了个简讯骂那只乌龟王八。
心理的如意算盘打着，若他没回我信，
我就跟他断绝关系，
烧掉他所有的照片，
让他去自生自灭！！！
可是。。。
他用了几百年的功夫回了一个照样极其敷衍的简讯。
我就放过他了。
我这女人还真是他娘的犯贱！
（爆）
无聊又sub-standard的chinese post
最近心情不佳，可能因为大姨妈就要造访了。
这几天正在拼看《刁蛮公主》，苏有朋与장나라（张娜拉）演的那部戏。
新年的这期间老娘一丁点与学校有关的东西都没碰，现在正为如此堕落的行为沮丧着呢 =(
等一下还要与损友们出去而pon lecture.
对不起了亮儿，今天不能陪你，星期五我陪你啦 *眨眼(winks)*
小朋友千万别学老娘哦 =D
昨天我老爹把照相机拿去修了。
他娘的，修照相机又不是人去看门诊，为什么还有diagnostic fees的？
这些东西还真会敲诈，换个LCD screen也要百多块呢。
可以预知这个星期啊，我将会为许多无谓的东西而忙呢。
昨天马太儿打电话来，问我情人节有没有节目。
有是有啦，不过还没决定要赴谁的约。他也提出了他的方案，觉得最后可能会选去他的呢。哈哈。
对了，老娘的脚现在啊，正布满了黑青！
而且还是在自己的“自虐”下形成的！
因为那些该死的蚊子，咬到我痒疯了，我又不想抓，结果就捏了那些被咬过的地方。
怎么知道，竟形成了黑青！
丑死了啦，害老娘短期内都不敢穿短裤/裙出去啦。 =(
要我成日穿牛仔裤？
啊！疯了啦~！
平时我的华文水平不是这么差的哦。因为这次在gek sai所以无法集中啦。嘻嘻。
